Kate Mara, who recently welcomed her first daughter with husband Jamie Bell, has opened up about her road to getting pregnant, revealing she suffered a harrowing miscarriage.
Speaking to a pregnancy podcast, Mara opened up about the events leading up to her successful pregnancy, admitting she suffered a miscarriage despite thinking she was pregnant.
"Even though we miscarried with that baby, because it was the first time I've ever been pregnant, and I've ever had that excitement and shock of being an almost mom, that just was such a special sort of reveal," Mara told Berlin's Informed Pregnancy. “It just will forever embedded in my mind, because then afterwards, when you find out the next time, the fear is all there."
After the first pregnancy test turned out to be false, Mara went in for tests to see what was going on.
"She [the doctor] said, 'There is clearly something off or wrong. Why don't you come back in and we'll see what we can see. I think the next day we went back in and she said I clearly had a blighted ovum, which I didn't know what that was at the time. I've learned what that is. So she said, 'Basically you've miscarried, but it just hasn't left your body yet.’”
Mara was then given the option to wait it out and let the body take care of it, or to have the miscarriage completed medically. "Everything just took so much time, so by the time it was all over, I mean, I had been pregnant for three months or something even though I wasn't really pregnant. It just dragged out forever,” she shared.
Eventually, however, the pair were successful and welcomed a baby girl in May.
"For us, because it happened the very first try, I was so hesitant the next time I got pregnant, which was again really quick, which was great, we got pregnant again very quickly. We were so nervous," she recalls. "It was weird, this bittersweet sort of...I was so excited, but also sad that we weren't as excited as we were the first time, because that was clear that it was a very different dynamic. It makes perfect sense."
Congratulations to the couple!
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