Twenty years on, Jamie Dornan confesses that he still mourns the loss of his mother to Pancreatic cancer when he was just 16-years-old.
Sitting down with the BBC to discuss his recent appointment as patron of cancer research and action fund NIPanC; the Fifty Shades star revealed the impact of growing-up without a mum had on him as a teenager.
“I look back on that time and see it in a very blurry way. I was very young, I was 14 when my mum got diagnosed and had just turned 16 when she died. Every kid at that age is naive, I felt like I was particularly young and naive at that time. I was a wee bit behind compared to my mates growing up, but I had to grow up pretty fast after that. It has an ever evolving effect on me, that loss, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone,” Jamie said.
The 36-year-old added, “horrific – I often say this but you don’t really know what the effects are of losing someone, particularly when you’re so young,” he said. “They are daily and continue to have an effect – you feel that they are manifesting over time in a way you didn’t expect them to…You never get over it and now that I have kids myself I see they don’t have a grandmother from my side – that’s an odd thing.”