The 26-year-old admits that in August, 2017, she made the decision to stop measuring, comparing her shape and idealising an unrealistic standard.
"It was time to make peace with my body. I threw away my scales, my measuring tape and my body checking. I threw away all my clothes from when I was at my smallest. I deleted all the gym selfies from my instagram, and all of the “progress” shots from my phone. Basically, I wanted no point of reference any more of a time when I was smaller, or larger. I just wanted to stop looking in mirrors and telling myself that I was “too fat”, and “not doing enough”."
Although her road to recovery was not easy or without setbacks, Malcolm says that she no longer berates herself for eating "bad" food and when the negative self-talk stopped she found a happy balance.
"When food isn’t a scarcity we stop feeling so desperate around it. But most importantly, when I saw my body reflected back at me, I said nice things to myself. I chose to empower myself."
If you, or anyone you know, is struggling with an eating disorder or body image contact the Butterfly Foundation at butterflyfoundation.org.au or on 1800 33 4673.