Bachelor In Paradise favourite Laurina Fleure chose to leave the show during last night's 'shocking' episode, with the pressure appearing all too much during her final scenes.
In a follow-up interview with Mamamia, Laurina has revealed that her older brother Michael Shaun Fitzgerald had passed away just one month before filming commenced. Understandably, her grief ultimately led to her decision to leave the show.
"I just needed to go home and grieve. I lost my brother to suicide a month before going on the show and at that point, I realised I really just needed to go. I initially thought going on the show would be a good form of escapism; if I fell in love there, then maybe I wouldn’t feel all the pain that I was suppressing," she told the publication.
Laurina also indicated that she did not want to tell the production crew or cast about the reason for her exit on-camera, saying:
"I didn’t want it to make it about that, I was doing my best to not talk about it and be a dampener on anything. At the time I don’t even think I was ready to talk about it, I was burying it. It was all underneath the surface, so when [producers] said you need to go on this date and you need to open up, I just cracked it. I was hyperventilating and panicking, like I had been winded. It was such a strong emotional reaction that just wasn’t warranted. It was then I realised I needed to leave and go home and look after myself."
Laurina also shared her side of the story in a heartfelt Instagram post, writing: "Tonight on BIP you see a very emotional reaction from me. The truth behind that reaction was that I had lost my big brother a month before. I thought I could escape to Paradise and run away.. but.., Like love pain is an emotion that needs to move through you, it craves expression and acknowledgement, and I couldn’t push it down longer, I needed to go home and allow myself to grieve the loss of my beautiful brother - Michael Shaun Fitzgerald - 🙏🏼 Thank you for having me Paradise you were a wonderful haven of love, friendship, light and laughter."
The Bachelor In Paradise star told Mamamia that she is feeling much better five months on.
"It’s beautiful. I have come a long way. I am learning to connect with life more than I ever have. Experiencing pain opens up your heart to experience more love. I have also met someone wonderful and I am very in love."
We're happy to hear she's doing so well, and are sending love to Laurina and her family.
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