"It’s been one hall of a productive, emotional, wild and yet ...happy! year," she continued. "Thankful for my babies who have provided me with endless strength, energy and inspiration...and to my friends who have held me together on the road and at home. I’m sure they’re just as exhausted lmao. Update: I still don’t know shit ab[out] love or have a clue what a personal life looks like other than hanging with pups and piggy which I’ve learned is...actually...more than enough!"
"Anyway, not sure why this anniversary has made me ramble on so much but....my heart feels good," she wrote. "Even though everything is up in the air / I still have a million questions...I’ve accepted it and feel somewhat whole, and that feels like something worth sharing. I guess. Love u."
Earlier this year, Ariana opened up about losing Mac Miller, telling Vogue US, "By no means was what we had perfect, but, like, fuck. He was the best person ever, and he didn’t deserve the demons he had." She went on to say her grief is "pretty all-consuming - I was the glue for such a long time, and I found myself becoming...less and less sticky. The pieces just started to float away."
Of her relationship with Pete Davidson, who she started dating in May 2018, before getting engaged in June of that year and ultimately ending their relationship four months later, in October, Grande said, "it was frivolous and fun and insane and highly unrealistic." She continued: "I loved him, and I didn’t know him. I’m like an infant when it comes to real life and this old soul, been-around-the-block-a-million-times artist. I still don’t trust myself with the life stuff."